Friday, March 26, 2010 . 9:11 PM
Today was the most tiring and worst day ever!Last night slept at 12.30am
Today woke up had 2.4 km test
Very tiring...
Then Art...
I cried in front of Mr Lim AGAIN!
Then my painting nver send in to SYF
Cos of some miscommunication
Waste my 2 weeks of time re-painting it!!
Well...
What's done is done...
What can I do now??
Cant change history...
Right now, both Maths and Art are in my priorities
Have to learn how to manage my time now...
My future will depends on what I do now...
FIGHTING!!! Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 . 9:31 PM
Maybe I'll try to avoid her as much as possibleI'll try not to make such promises with her again
I wont even expect much from her again
Sometimes I really felt Fang Tian like...
Like she's afraid of me surpassing her one day
Like she's never really treat me like her friend
not at least a good or a close friend
Maybe I have mistreated her many times before?
I wonder if I did so... and I think I should have, maybe a few times
But I didnt really mean it if I ever did...
Sometimes I really wonder how she felt about me
I did actually asked her how she felt bout me
But when she had to answer my question, she didnt really gave me an answer
Instead of giving me, "you arh... I never really go and think bout it"
I mean it's okay that she cant give me an answer
but the thing is, why is she so good bout telling me bout what kind of person that person really is like and yet when it comes to "how does she think of me"
Yet she cant give me a specific answer?
If she doesnt really like me
then just say it out
I rather she told me bout what she really think of me rather than just beating round the bush or keep giving me some stupid excuses
I really hate it when she always changes her plans and decisions in the last min
I mean if u really dun wanna turn up for the date or u dun feel like turning up for the date
THEN JUST SAY IT OUT!
I really hate it when u beat around the bush!
It's not the first time alrdy
But it's still ur own decision...
And sometimes, I cant help it but got a little frustrated sometimes
But recently, I have been mean towards her
It's really frustrating that Fang Tian sometimes cant keep her promises
And Meilin was also starting to be like her
Maybe it's really bothering me, that's why I've been being too direct with her that I started saying mean stuffs to her
AND also to the others, offending ppl
But I TRULY DIDNT MEAN IT THAT WAY
Just trying to vent out some anger in me
After all the tears, reflections
I think maybe in some ways, I was wrong towards her before
But all that was in the past
Today what happened in school was also alrdy the past
No matter what happens, if you're still alive, LIFE STILL HAS TO GO ON
After so much of reflections these few days
I think I should back out for a while
Maybe I was being a little too selfish
Maybe a little too greedy
Maybe a little too self-centered
and a little too oversensitive
I wont expect much from her anymore
Neither from Meilin too
I could only say, now I would only take her words as 50:50 chance of promise
I couldnt really fully trust in her words anymore
Thanks to Marcus for cheering me up just now
that I spill out all the beans that even tears came out rolling out too
Sometimes it's good to have some guy friends
Sometimes girls are really too sensitive
I'm a GIRL TOO! I KNOW THAT!
But I prefer guys sometimes, they are much more better than girls
Instead of looking at their annoyed faces, I rather hang out with some guy friends
Gossiping here and there... sometimes it can be really too much!
I'm not being sarcastic, just stating what I actually thought and felt bout it...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Sunday, March 21, 2010 . 3:55 PM
Today I finally found back my passion...What passion?
Passion in studying of course!
Right now...
Right here...
I dont wanna think anymore about LOVE
It's just so time consuming
And it's irritating
No more LOVE & RELATIONSHIPS in my life
CAREER will become my priority in life
Saving & helping people will also soon become my part-time job
Nothing is more important than that :)
“爱情” 这两个字。。。
已经在我人生中抹掉了。。。
再也不会留恋什么。。。
算了。。。
过去的事，就让它过去吧
当作什么事情也没发生也罢了
这样反而也比较好
我不会再要求什么，也不会在期待什么
只是现在很想要走我想走的路
就算到时候是时候接受，我还是会有我的苦衷
依然还是会离将来的他越来越远。
这样也好，不再去喜欢人
也没有人喜欢我
这样双方都没有事情
这样总比对方受到伤害还要好
那不是更好吗？
对！就到此画线吧！
以事业为重！继续过自己的人生！
Karine 你一定行的！
아자 아자 화이팅！
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Friday, March 19, 2010 . 12:09 AM
Today have fun at Sheryl & Matthew's birthdayBut not really my day...
My shoes dropped off and I had a VERY VERY "NICE" slippers home
I could say I was looking in a quite messy state
And I really hate it cos I dun really look well while taking photos of those wonderful moments
Plus...I've ruined the song that we've prepared for many many times since a few days ago
I'm tired now
I didnt really enjoyed myself today
But as long as Matthew and Sheryl likes it today
I'm happy enough
It's their day today
They deserve to enjoy themselves
Well... tired and ugly me
How I wish I could have more clothes and money to cover up for today's mistakes and embarrassing moments that I've made :(
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 . 10:55 PM
HE is totally a JERKthe most idiotic guy in the Earth I've ever met!
Cant believe how I actually made such friends like him
Well... Not to worry
I'm not in contact with him often
Just ignore him will do...
JERK...
NEVER WILL I LIKE YOU EVER AGAIN!
YOU'RE SO DETESTABLE!!!
YOU MADE ME DESPISE YOU!!
What a jerk...
What an idiot...
What a coward...
Just pretending nothing happened and yet acting like u're so cool
when YOU'RE ACTUALLY NOT!
NOT EVEN A SINGLE BIT OF IT!
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Thursday, March 11, 2010 . 10:04 PM
OH NO... !!I feel DAMN BAD today!
Why did I become like that?
I'm VERY VERY SORRY GUYS!! :(
Well...
It's alrdy over...
I cant make any amends :(
Kami-sama...
I'm starting to get greedy again!
greedy over many many things
I cant even handle such small little love & relationships problems
Yet I'm hoping for someone to sometimes be there for me
Am I too greedy?
Yeah...
Love relationship...
all the pain and agony...
it's torturing...
Sometimes how I wish I hadnt really known how being in love was like...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Saturday, March 6, 2010 . 10:32 PM
OMGOSH!!!!!~HE JUST CONFESSED TO ME!!
IS THAT JUST BEING OVERSENSITIVE OR MY WILD IMAGINATION??
IT IS HAPPENING!
OMG!!
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME A GUY EVER CONFESSED TO ME IN MY WHOLE LIFE!!!
My heart is accelerating fast right now and I dont know what to do
THIS IS SO DAMN SUDDEN!!
Well...
I did ever hope that he'll like me one day...
AND IT DID TODAY!
But that hope...
that wish...
was alrdy the past...
the past immature and childish me who still likes him and had a crush on him
But now is different
Thinking of this...
There's butterflies in my stomach and my heart will start to accelerate even faster
I dont know how to handle such situations
and I hate to handle such situations
What am I going to do?
Well....
In fact that I'm taller than him
I should reject him
Since he had ever hurt me that badly
The more I should not accept his request
BE CALM KARINE!!!
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A RESOLUTION TO IT!!!
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Thursday, March 4, 2010 . 4:32 PM
Really spoil my whole mood!Just becos I didnt notice that Liqing was just right beside Cheryl and QiuJin at Lot one
I really dislike her
Who do u think she is??
So what if she somewhat better than me?
No Big deal man!
likes to look down on ppl
This kind of girl will get to no where further...
Seriously hate it!
I will prove to her that even the NA could oso win over the express students!
Arrogant b!tch Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Wednesday, March 3, 2010 . 10:27 PM
Today felt so HAPPY!Like I've accomplished things that I didnt before
and since year ago i did it again!
Now I learned how to differentiate between Love and Friendship
Love will be Love relationship
Friendship will be Friends relationship
No more oversensitive
No more other special thoughts
Wanting to live to the fullest everyday from today onwards! XD
Her voices... Where her HEART is...