Monday, August 30, 2010 . 10:23 PM
Here goes the negative side of life...Yea~
This time round
I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU KARINE TYS!
What have become of me today?
I've been questioning myself this since last month
I'm getting more and more imprudent
lacking of self-control
I am crazy bout stupid stuffs recently until I DONT KNOW WHAT HAVE I BECOME OF TODAY!
And if I didn't rmb wrongly
I flung my maths paper into HIS hands
when he asks to have a look at my paper
It wasnt the first time
and i did it AGAIN!
It wasn't intentionally, I'm sorry again!
What happened to me?!
My ENGLISH!
What's wrong?!
Actually I knew it was alrdy wrong in the first place
yet I kept denying
True enough, this day truly came to me
and it is TODAY
Nice, and thanks for the "gift"!
Had a "WONDERFUL" conversation with LF this afternoon:
LF: 怎样？Emaths 考得怎样？
ME： O.o (speechless...)
LF: .............. 看你样子应该是考得不理想吧...?
ME: okay la...
LF: Wah~ 还好我的Emaths pass 阿！Emaths 如果不pass 的话，要去跳楼了！
ME： *** Emaths 如果不pass 的话，要去跳楼了... 那我算什么？。。。 我就要去跳楼吗？***
Relax...
I have to calm down
I must have eaten too much onion and garlic again
GOSH~~!
the side effects of it
Arghh...
This is fortunately just the prelims
Now it's time for acceleration
I dont care how I will survive
I just want to accelerate my engine
and that's all! Her voices... Where her HEART is...
WHO ARE YOU TO INTERRUPT INTO MY LIFE!?!Just let me go...
Is that just so hard?...
Yea... I know I'm crazy
crazy over my prelims..art..
crazy over the comparisons made...
crazy over how unworthy I am to you...
crazy over how should I ever face you again...
Happy now...?
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Friday, August 27, 2010 . 9:57 PM
Well, a normal day todayJust didnt felt as tired as before
was really awake this aftrnn
Looks like he cant online for a long while~
since his comp break down
this should keep me away from being online for a long while too!
It's a good news anyway :)
Now I have to chiong finish art and focus more on studies
Especially Literature.
It's failing me badly.
I have to balance my ss too,
If not all my hard work will go down the drain!
Jiayous! HAHA XD Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Wednesday, August 25, 2010 . 8:15 PM
Tearing apart.Banging my head against the wall.
Tired.
Exhausted.
But...
I have to move on...
MOVE ON...MOVE ON...MOVE ON...
I've been hearing this...
more than a time...
Persevere!
I'll hang on...
pushing till the end...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
I finally figured out my own art interpretationThanks to FT for helping me and guiding me till nite
Haha...
It's finally cleared to me
But not too happy yet
I still havent got teacher's agreement
So whether its relevant or not, still have to wait and see...
It was late night
It was going 10pm
and it was in this month
That I'm going home at such hour
It's dangerous.
I know it well myself
When FT's mum offered to send me home
I was touched
Both FT and her mom sent me home safely
I was really grateful
I knew it very well too
That someday, I have to return their favor as well...
I am awake now
Still very awake
I only know that all I have to do is to kept working on and on
Just do it.
Stop thinking and just do it
What have I been doing for these past few weeks?
I'm clearly awake now
I wouldnt want to go back to sleep again
And I wont ever want to sleep again
Because there's something more that I want to do...
Be it hard, difficult, disappointing or depressing
Just do it, and do it the best :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Sunday, August 22, 2010 . 12:41 AM
If I say I don't wanna bother you, would you focus more on your studies?If I say I don't wanna distract you, would you even work and try harder for ur studies?
If I say we're not young anymore, We are 17, would you even make the effort to think for yourself?
Why am I worrying over such things for?
I can chose not to...
Cant you at least think for yourself?
If not, can't you at least think for me?
Can't you see what have I been doing these few days in school?
Isn't my msg quite clear to you during our last talk?
Why can't u just understand?
Just do it for the sake for these 2 months
At least for these 2 months...
Is that just so hard to do it?
"Don't let little things get in your way." Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Saturday, August 14, 2010 . 1:48 PM
Yesterday was a great day!Painted my pooh bear sooo detailed
All I was thinking was to do it well and do it my best
I didnt really think of anything
Not even HIM.
I was sort of enjoying the process...
After until Mr Tan and Mr Lim came to comment on my pooh bear
I didnt really notice it was so good
When I step back to see more clearly of it
I was " OMGOSH!"
I cant believe I could paint this well either
HAHA!
Somehow my pooh bear exceeded Lai Feng's overall painting :)
Well, I've learnt that whatever things I do
Dont think too much bout perfection
Bout every single step u do must be the correct one
When u are doing some things
Just do it and enjoy the process of it
Be it boring, dull or dry
But just do it.
It's just a matter of whether u wanna do it or not
One more inspiring quote:
It's not a matter of whether u KNOW how to do it or not, its a matter of whether u WANT to do it or not...
Everyone has their own potential to do many things
It's just that...
Are u WILLING to do it?
That's the main question :) Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Wednesday, August 11, 2010 . 8:23 PM
Wake up!Come back to reality!
Everything isnt wad u thought to be...
So stop thinking and wishing...
Cos everything is just as realistic as they can be!
Yea.
Reality.
One word, yet it could change everything
It's time to face reality I guess...
Everything was a dream...
I was hoping for nothing ...
And I'm not gonna hope for anything anymore
Just gonna appreciate what has left for me
Let nature takes its course
Cos I wanna lead my own life, like the way before HE stepped into my life :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Saturday, August 7, 2010 . 2:27 PM
Yesterday was School National Day CelebrationToday is Marcus's birthday
And the thing is that we still dont know what to give him for his present
Yesterday's celebration was boring
Tian didnt came to school
That makes it even boring
I couldnt get high
Cos all I was thinking was my ART
After the whole celebration
I finally get to do the things that I wanted
N level Art deadline was yesterday
So teachers are more concerned bout them
Mr Lim said my work sure would have problem
No changes.
I was worried.
Yea. I alrdy expect that my work would have a lot of problems
But the problems wouldnt happen now
It would happen, in just one month's time
I'm prepared for it
I'm prepared for anything
For the worse
I seemed to forget my own life principles
That I once used to say
What a guy can do, a girl could do too!
What a guy is capable of doing, a girl could also do as well as him! And even better!
What's wrong with my confidence level these few days?
I have to erase and rewrite my rotten heart and dirty lies
YEA!
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Sunday, August 1, 2010 . 2:55 PM
New url...New signatures...
Decided to use latin words for my url
Find it cool!
HAHA!
Alien language
Then no one will know whose blog is this
HAHA
Well... it wasnt meant to be known for all people out there
Well...
Something flicked through my mind
And I understood
I was finally stable
I have alrdy calm down
And I am calm now!
The answer that I have been searching for
It was frm Ms Chong's words
And it contains the same meaning to my answer
"If he wants to tell you, he will tell you. Don't go asking bout what happened..."
IF
"he wants to talk to me, he will talk to me"
"he wants to ask me, he will ask"
It's something that I cant control...
I'll have to wait, I'll have to observe what's next is coming for me
That's all I could do
Now everything is stabilize
It's gd now.
I can fully focus on my studies
No worries except academic anxiety!
Yea...
After reading FT's blog
There's so much we've been through in life
For some who are still struggling in their life
For some who are still dreaming in their childhood days, acting immaturely
For some whom are like us, climb out of our own shell to take a look at how the world is being shaped
And some, who are rich enough to realise how fortunate they are to be rich
And some whom are like us, who are poor enough to realise how blessed we are to be truly poor
Whatever we do, and wadever things we pick up or meet along the way
There will always be ups and downs
Good or Bad
Happy or sad...
contrasting enough, contradicting enough, either way or the opposite
It's LIFE
Whether u like it or not, u'll always have to face it
Live it, or Leave it =) Her voices... Where her HEART is...