Friday, October 29, 2010 . 11:34 PM
Well...What's wrong with me?
What was I hoping for anyway?
I guess these sudden mood changes engulfed me back to 25 Sept 2010 again.
It's useless thinking...
I knew this better than anyone else
Forget it. Just forget it.
Let time bury everything...
Though it might be hard now, but I'm sure the radiant sun would shine once again :)
I thought the heavy rain had alrdy subsided
And once again I'm smiling at the clear blue sky aimlessly
But I guess its still drizzling
Well, drizzle would eventually come to a stop...
Patience is virtue :) Her voices... Where her HEART is...
"If it isnt significant for u to remember, it isnt significant enuf to bring up again "Alright. I'm speechless.
Though speechless, but I've got lots of it to blurt out
Yet I'm unable to...
Sorry that it was very insignificant to me okay?
I didnt catch what u're saying the whole time
earlier on this year
until april...
April, I've found this chance
in you, clearer
I thought I was the only one in ur vision
Confident, and assume to be correct
Interactions, communications, actions
I thought I knew better
Kept searching for rooms, to improve
Always thought that maybe, someday
would fall upon us
When school almost coming to an end
Everyone started pulling their socks
The bell finally rang
And I came to realize September
You arent alone, no more
And, that was end of school.
Voices, that cant travel
not to their destinations
Distractions, Obstacles
Pulling through the end of vacation
Still, I'm walking by
with time, alone
Concentration, focus, self-control
became my center of attention
Forgive to forget
I thought its manageable, yet
Emotions dont permit
beyond my control, still
struggling through... Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Tuesday, October 26, 2010 . 5:47 PM
I don't need anyone's approval in the way how I live my life...Never give up.
Live on forever.
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Yea. You wont understand, cos you dont even know a single thing...If I could tell you, I would have done so long time ago... Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Friday, October 22, 2010 . 9:24 PM
Hmmm...怎么说呢？
今天是我终于送他的第一个，也是最后一个生日礼物
把他当成朋友那样看待，的确感到很不一样
说话会变得比较自在 :)
让我看清的是，摆在我眼前的，一切都是事实
这段日子，辛苦大家了
接下来的人生，我还是会继续地走下去
渴望...
欲望...
希望...
都不会在多要求什么了...
It's actually true :
"When life gives you lemons, make some lemonade"
Forgiven and Forgotten.
Stop looking back and move forward.
Time to take charge and get on with plan.
Independence is all that I need
Feels great... :)
不管以后会发生些什么，只要不去在乎
就可以了.
不在乎，就已经很足够了.
What you do speaks so loud that I cannot hear what you say - Ralph Waldo Emerson
What Zhi Qing said
Is true.
If I dont acquire knowledge now, I might not be able to in the next few years time
We can find jobs and work at any time, but acquiring knowledge is not negotiable all the time as we age...
Not because knowledge doesnt permit
It's our brain that forbids.
Why not try as hard as you could now?
Before time becomes the main obstacle along the path of knowledge :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Thursday, October 21, 2010 . 5:18 PM
" What's wrong with falling down?Because as long as I stand up again it'll be just fine...
If you look up the sky after falling down
The blue sky is also today, stretching limitlessly and smiles at me...
People shouldn't dwell on the past
It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now... "
1 Litre of Tears...
Always as touching as it is... :)
Live on.
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Friday, October 8, 2010 . 11:58 PM
Well....Today was Graduation Day!!!
Haha...
Finally the day that all of us were waiting for!
No more lessons and no more of classes
End of our school days...
Gonna miss the school and the teachers who've taught me
Enjoyable today!
Last Night Study too...
Time really flies fast...
Well...
After weeks and weeks
I've been observing him, sometimes
I came to realize that he wasnt what I actually thought to be
Much more different I guess
Was actually glad that time really did gave me another chance to reconsider
And now I'm not regretting...
I really did enjoy myself in school today
And I'm not bothered by him anymore
I felt more carefree, I am given freedom now :)
Days passes...
Weeks passes...
Nobody is going to bother about me
And I'm not going to bother bout others too...
I'm just living my life to the fullest as always :)
Gradually... I realized...
I've naturally let go...
someone I've once treasured very much :)
Even though there's still some emptiness in my heart
But I feel carefree again
it was comforting enough
"Something" that I felt, used to be in there, is missing
Yet I rather feel calmer and unrestricted than before
Even though I'll still feel the pain sometimes
not becos of him...
But rather how my feelings were being cheated by him...
It's not fully his fault either
I do also have my own fault
Just take it as I didnt really open my eyes wide enough
Blaming him doesnt help either
He doesnt even know anything anyway...
It would be unfair if I blame him for everything
Just that I would still feel a little unsatisfied, unfair
that my feelings were being cheated like that by someone for months
I've also got a clearer view of others, the people around me
How I've become myself today...
I guess I wasn't been conscious enough of my activities for these past few months...
Well...
What's there to forgive and forget, has alrdy been done!
Time to wake up!
Reality is still reality
Just face it.
Whatever previous bad or worse relationships and friendship that we all had, were all alrdy the past
There will still be more in the future
And maybe even much better than the present :)
I'll still learn to be grateful as always, looking forward to what my future may bring :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Saturday, October 2, 2010 . 3:29 PM
After reading my previous blogs that I've written...Time sure does flies fast
Many things sure have happened
That makes us who we are today...
I'm no longer wishing for someone else...
Neither do I wanna stay for someone
I'm walking alone now.
Yes I'm sure I am.
And I love the way I am doing now :)
He must be thinking that I'm detesting him now.
In fact, I'm not.
Everyone of my classmates, including Sheryl and her gang of friends
Though we are quite distant now
Though we ignored one another now
But I nver thought of destesting and disliking them so much...
Not even to the man that used to hurt me soooo much
Forgive, and forget would literally come to you :)
Well...
Now O lvls is round the corner
Stress level is rising gradually each and every day
I've come to read one of my previous post that I've posted to one of my blogs
It was sure impressive that I could wrote such things...
"Although sometimes we have a lot of doubts
and we felt annoyed
but we accept it eventually
Many things have happen
which made us realized so many things
Which also made us grow up, mature
And somethings are meant to be what they should be
In this world, there are always ordinary and genius people
If there is no ordinary people like us
There will be no geniuses
becos if there is no ordinary people
then we people will not even know wad is the difference between clever and stupid
And that doesnt mean that the geniuses always wins the game
becos without the ordinary people
do u think they can survive on their own?
And do u know
sometimes geniuses does stupid things too :D
Dont feel sad whenever ur study results is bad
cos u'll tend to compare urself wif the geniuses
And although there are times when the geniuses starts to sympathize we mediocre
Dont feel bad
Cos they are the ones whom we should really sympathize
Cos its the vast amount of geniuses that makes up the whole Mental Hospital
and some even worse which ended in a terrible suicide
If you're trying to become a genius
then it's up to u
Cos in life, there will always be someone better than u
why for keep on soaring even higher when you're alrdy high enough to see the world??
Being ordinary or genius doesnt matter
As long as you still know wad u are doing
and u are still in control of your life
Leading a happy life is enough for your satisfaction :) "
Well...
Inspiring and motivating enough...
So many things did happen...
And all of us have changed.
Life.
I wonder what it brings me tmr :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...