Sunday, June 27, 2010 . 7:46 PM
HAHA!Well, this post was especially for Meilin
We both actually make a deal to upload our childhood photos up into the net
Well...
Since I'm not going to online soon enough
I'll upload the photos by today
Cos I know I'll eventually forgot to upload in future
So better upload now in case I forget in future :)
Well...
Can u spot me so far???
XD
For a more and clear image of me, u can go to my facebook photos
I've uploaded some there XD
http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?id=1542076004#!/album.php?aid=61195&id=1542076004
Enjoy!
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Thursday, June 24, 2010 . 6:53 PM
I'm not going to elaborate muchJust short and simple...
I dont know but things are getting really "TOO COINCIDENT?"
First of all, we often met wherever we go (almost everyday in school, and it's still happening now :X)
Recently, we just bumped onto each other physically and worse, not only bumped onto him and also stepped onto one of his shoes! (Why of all the people must it be HIM?!)
When we went to yew tee point to buy cake and his water in NTUC, he bought exactly the same water bottle that i had brought it in my bag for only that day!
Sometimes when I come online in MSN, he came online too, almost the same time as me :X (Maybe he did it purposely? I dont know...)
There's more in the past, which I couldnt recall much now...
Bringing these up becos I'm thinking that all these things are sooo coincident
As if everything is arranged beforehand
Well, I know this is kind of straight-forward and random
But sometimes when I come to think of it
It all gets too weird...
Maybe not used to it...
Anyway, I just wanna focus
Turning to study mode soon after June holidays
It's really funny that ppl are working hard during the June holidays
and here I'm slacking like some 'nothing to do' freaks
and until June holidays ended then I start pulling up my socks
Everytime the process is always like that for me =(
Really gotta accelerate my engine~
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Sunday, June 20, 2010 . 7:47 PM
LUCKY!!!Haha!
Today went to Watson's to buy this!
Tian introduce this to me
I went to the staff who approached me yesterday to borrow her member card
Then she gave me this small bottle of Whitening Complete Cleanser as a free gift :)
It's like both of us benefited from smth
LOL!
Maybe there was a free gift which I didnt know?
LOL! Anyway..
Fortunately enough, I didnt went over to my Grandma's hse
the food there actually finished and my sis had to return back hme for dinner
If I were to tag along, I would be wasting my time now =(
Well, I'm always getting envious over some small little things these few days
Envious of people who've got so much of their time yet not using it properly
Well, My June Holiday STUDY PLAN has alrdy failed!!
I couldnt study most of it
Haiz...
Though I didnt get to study most of it
But at least I did some of it :)
After holidays is my turn to go study mode
June Holidays ain't holidays to me
They are like vacations to me =(
Well, what's the use of envying and getting a lil' jealous over the others?
Might as well just start doing it instead of just envying the others
I rmbed this chinese saying:
与其临渊羡鱼, 不如退而结网
Gotta accelerate my engine soon!
Dad is also putting some hopes into me
He finally believes I'm trying hard to study
LOL!
I have to work hard and not let everyone down
Especially Dad and Tiger
LOL!
頑張って!
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Thursday, June 17, 2010 . 7:49 PM
WHAT HAPPENED TO ME THESE FEW DAYS?!I kept forgetting this and that
And I kept walking around here and there like a wandering dog =.=
I guess I'm really growing old
My brain cant function as brilliant as before
Somehow it seems like millions of brain cells had just died in my brain
Becoming more and more retarded & slow
I realize I'm becoming more and more occupied
Full of thoughts and things in my mind
I just wonder how much more can it contain before it explodes =.=
I think I'm lacking of sleep again
PLUS!
I'm sleeping later & later every night
Getting pimples on my faces SOON!
Though I love ART in sch becos I'm always doing my work
& too occupied with my things that I've got no other time to even think about those things that I dun wanna think about
BUT! I wanna study TOO!
I havent been studying ever since 31 May 2010!!!
Sadded ='(
TIRED everyday
June holiday is NOT a holiday
How I wish time could travel faster and also at the same time, wishing for time to slow down becos I'm NOT prepared AT ALL =(
What an irony...!
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Monday, June 14, 2010 . 10:29 PM
Yea.Liking someone is STUPID.
Yet u uncontrollably fall in love with someone.
Someone who is much more below your ideal standard.
Well, STILL
My career comes first no matter what...
LOVE is always the last in my list :)
IMPOSSIBLE becos we are from 2 different world
We grew up in 2 diff world
Thinkings are 2 diff things
Interest are 2 diff things
Manners are 2 diff ways of doing it
Environment is also 2 diff atmosphere
At the start didnt even click at all
So why for bother?
Waiting for me to initiate AGAIN?
Wait long long XD
Dont expect more from me
I'm not that kind of girl that u always thought of
I'm more than what u really think! =.=
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Sunday, June 13, 2010 . 9:28 PM
Feeling nostalgic again :)After watching last episode of Ouran High School Host Club
I still like it the way it is
the same feeling I had when I finally get to watch the last episode
Some kind of Deja Vu
But I LOVE IT!!!
Last and SIMPLE question for all!
Answer it WISELY!! XD
Though random, but it's always very meaningful to me :)
DO YOU WANT TO GO WHERE YOU CAN GO?
OR DO YOU WANT TO GO WHERE YOU COULD GO?
Your future is in ur own hands...
Fate and Destiny is set by your own choices :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Saturday, June 12, 2010 . 4:17 PM
Went for some research today bout my heart problemsand the pain that keeps occurring in my chest sometimes
It's more likely "Pneumothorax" rather than any heart problems or disease
It's the lungs that is having the problem
Cos it's on my left side of the lungs
Basically it's "trapped air" between my left lung and the chest wall
When its trapped on the left lung it can feel like its coming from your heart.
Up till now, it still hurts sometimes
I cant take in too deep breaths
If not the pain would come again
For more info on Pneumothorax :
http://www.patient.co.uk/showdoc/23069039/
I think my case is not very serious
Maybe I'll just have to wait for a few more days for the pain to go away
Well, that website is really helpful
what kind of diseases or illnesses
Just search and go
It's really convenient
Plus, really very detail and full of information too
I remembered there's a Japanese drama which oso mentioned bout this problem
It's called Iryu Team Medical Dragon
It's a DAMN NICE show!
I still love watching it even though I've watched before
On mysoju.com, can find in the episode 1 part 4
It talks bout one patient (who was actually a nurse) who has Pneumothorax
Though it's a little disgusting and scary
But NICE DRAMA!!! XD
Well, cant say much
Gotta study now! :P Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Friday, June 11, 2010 . 7:51 PM
I will not make the same mistakes that you didI will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
Because of You by Kelly Clarkson
I once used to feel this way
But not anymore...
That was the worst feeling that I ever got
And the HARDEST Hit I ever got during that year
from my 2nd time in having special feelings with an IDIOTIC guy
This song just reminds me of him
He's not worth to be like anyway...
I'm having breathing problems again
My heart seems to be having some problems again
I dont know what's happening to my heart
But such problem doesnt always happen
It's already been years
It rarely happens
yet I dont know why this year it kept on coming for quite a number of times
Sometimes I really hate my body system
Looking so fine and healthy
yet inside of it is so weak and fragile
Gastric , heart problems, bladder problems , low-blood pressure ...
My healthy organs are no longer healthy
Lacking of red-blood cells too
How much longer can I survive???
When will my heart stop beating?
I've been asking this question to myself, my body
So I could prepare myself beforehand
But there's no answer, that's why I'm worried
I can leave EVERYTHING behind
But I dont want to leave everything UNDONE behind... Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Monday, June 7, 2010 . 11:34 AM
嘴巴都是每个人都有的
上帝给了我们一人一张嘴
不是为了向别人说出难听的话
不是向别人投诉所有的不满
而是让我们能够在这世上，带给人们快乐
是说出好的真心话
虽然是我们的嘴巴没错
我们要说什么话，都是我们的自由
但是
饭是可以乱吃，话可不能乱讲
“星星之火，可以燎原”
不要藐视那么几句话
因为，就因为你的那几句话，可以让某人又讨厌多一个人
甚至失去了一个好朋友
说话，非常简单
要说什么都可以
但是，在说话之前
可以先经过大脑想一下才说吗？
连经过大脑想都有这么困难吗？
也许你不是有意的
也许你所说出的那番话，并不是别人所误以为是那个意思
但是，在聆听的人，可能会误解你的一番好心
要怪，也只能怪自己
没有能力表达出自己真正的看法
主见
每个人都有自己的主见
小的，大的，老的，年的，少的，
只要是人，都有自己的主见
可是许多人，往往都被身边的朋友或外人蒙住了自己的眼睛
也就渐渐地失去了所谓的“自己”
难道你生活的意义就只有随从别人的意见而已吗？
“人云亦云”，就是你人生里所定下来的目标吗？
难道你自己就连一点自豪感都没有吗？
要做人，就堂堂阵阵地做
虚心假意， 就那么为了想显摆自己
让自己能够得到无数的利益吗？
有什么好炫耀的？
自己有多聪明，多厉害，人家心里有数
伤害别人的心，就是你的专长吗？
弄伤别人的心，对你来说，就没有什么大不了吗？
就因为身边的外人说这样是对的
他/她就一定是对的吗？
就算他再怎么对，也没资格批评你
你是你
只有你才是最了解你自己的人
选择
每个人在人生里都能拥有的东西
只要你还是活着，都有权利选择
一个人可以选择维持或放弃
当然也可以选择做成熟或幼稚的自己
当你在做出选择的时候
虽然身旁的人可以让你改变主意，可以给你劝告，警告，甚至鼓励或支持你
但是最终要做出这个决定的
仍然还是自己
你是你人生里的作者
没有人可以改造你的人生
要变得好，是自己的选择
要变坏，也是自己的选择
都是自己的自由...
朋友
虽然那么简单的两个字，却比你想象中的难
选择朋友，眼睛要睁大一点
好或坏的，任你选
你的自由，你的人生
是没人能够控制的
你是什么样的人，就会有什么样的朋友
好的朋友，一直都会在你身边支持你
不管你做出任何选择，都会尊重你
好的朋友，不会让你难过
当你流泪的时候，会帮你擦干泪水
当你生气的时候，会拉你一把
当你高兴的时候，会在你身边和你一起分享快乐
妒嫉，怀疑，不满
都是先从你自己内心里创造出来的
朋友没有要求你一定要有任何这一样东西
才能够维持这段友情
但自己却无缘无故自作多情
何苦呢？
这些要怪，也就怪自己
没人要求你要有这些邪恶的念头
都是自己所编出来的
心胸狭窄地看待人生
那又何必呢？
对你和大家，又有何利益？
人生的路，要怎么走
就看你个人怎么去看待任何事情
每一样东西，都有它的好和坏
世上没有一样东是完美的
但是我们却能够在这不完美的世界里，活得更快乐，更精彩，也更有意义
就因为这些不完美的东西，也让我们学到了许多事情
让我们体会到别人所还未体会的东西
也因此，让我们成长很多，让我们体会到什么是人生的滋味...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Sunday, June 6, 2010 . 11:51 PM
Maybe after all, it was me who was trying to be too perfectWho was always thinking too perfectly, too ideally
that I'm so foolishly experiencing the pain the I've once used to experience it...
T.I.M.E , how I need u badly...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Saturday, June 5, 2010 . 4:03 PM
Well..WARNING:
This is going to be quite a LLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNGGG Post.
It's going to be R.A.D.N.O.M
For those who cant take this post, CLICK the X button on the top right corner of the tab :)
I've been always thinking
Thinking...
Thinking...
Thinking...
Convincing myself
Persuading myself
Doubting myself
Thanks to the book that I've borrowed
It helps me a lot...
凡事不必太在意，更不需要去强求，就让一切随缘。
逃避，不一定躲得过；面对，不一定最难过；孤独，不一定不快乐；得到，不一定能长久；失去，不一定不再拥有，可能因为某个理由而伤心难过，但，你却能找个理由让自己快乐，两个人不能快乐，不如一个人快乐；两个人痛苦，不如成全一个人的快乐。
MSN PM:
"You can't fathom the feelings I have for you..."
其实，我都知道你的心意
的确不了解你到底是什么意思，到底在想些什么
或许，根本就不是在指我
是我自己想太多了也说不定
但是现在，不是时候管着一些...
1. 首先确定对方是否喜欢你
2. 其次，确定对方值不值得你去喜欢
3. 最后艺术化地表达你对他的感觉
确定对方值不值得你去喜欢...
我暂时还没有确定的答案。。。
世上，还有其他美丽的花朵
为什么我偏偏就一定要选择采这么一朵花呢？
是啊...
孤独，不一定不快了
得到，不一定能长久
失去，不一定不再拥有...
我在寻找
在找回我曾所拥有过的本领
现在已失去，不代表找不回来
可是年龄好像在阻碍我
但我相信，一定能找回的
只要相信，就会有奇迹
都是每个人都在说的话...
世上最幸运的事情，就是能出生为女人
有很多事情，是男人办不到的
我们女人却做到了
是一件很荣幸的事
It's been long ever since I've get to have such thinking again!
I want to remake my own life's principles!
管那么多干嘛？
他再怎么想，我也不再管了
如果以后
如果...
还有机会的话
我想再次把握住
我想伤害毕竟是每个人，人生中该走的过程
就是因为在这过程中，让我们成长了许多
现在终于找到了答案
也不会再多留恋...
也不再感到害怕了...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Friday, June 4, 2010 . 5:12 PM
Today & yesterdayI have did smth BAD
I just spilled the milk AGAIN
Although I finally get to relieve myself
Yet, it's still BAD
Yesterday Fang tian
Today Xin Yi
What a VERY NICE DAY!?
If I dont know who she was
Then I wasnt fit to have the same birthday as her
What she wanted to become
I dont really want to bother
but it's really SICK to watch her being like that sometimes
Instead of having opinions about her
I rather wanna thank her
Thank her for always reminding me not to be like her
Sometimes looking at her was like looking the at myself way back a few years ago
It's a good experience to have someone like her to remind me of
Remind me of not repeating the mistakes that I've once made
Wearing a fake mask
Is that so fun to play??!
Well, working hard..
Striving hard...
& Avoiding...
Life seems to be full of events everyday...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...