Thursday, April 29, 2010 . 2:16 PM
FearIt's that what it makes someone to be that weak??
I really hate it when it comes into my heart & threaten me to do things which I hate doing it...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Wednesday, April 28, 2010 . 10:38 PM
I watches quite many episodes on Hi My Sweetheart TodayWatch until episode 17
WAAHHHH!
I have to stop watching le
Exams coming
Will be busy for weeks again!!
Somehow or rather, I felt very TIRED
TIRED OF SO MANY THINGS
Kind of sad too
Maybe it's becos of the drama that is affecting me, or maybe I've been listening to their sad OST
Kind of depressing sometimes
Well, now I dun wann think anymore
I'm TIRED
TIRED TO CARE what's going to happen to me
I just know that I have to complete my tasks and accomplished what I've set
Love... admiration... troubles...
WHATEVER CRAPS ALL THROW AWAY!!!!! XD
I CAN DO IT!!!
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Tuesday, April 27, 2010 . 6:19 PM
Wow...刚才为了姐的blog，一直说个不停的。
也读了她的blog，所以就写出了我所有的感想。
想到姐的爱情事情，就想起我自己的。
Even though I dont know whether he still likes me or not
And I dun wanna care or know bout it either
I know thinking of these would even make things worse for me, what for do I need to think bout all these??!
I'm also TOO TIRED TO EVEN BOTHER BOUT HIM
I've managed to be normal with him again
Everything seems to turn normal again
The normal him acting normally again
And the normal me, thinking normally again
Like friends together again.
It's so carefree! :)
Sometimes, dont know if u ever have such feelings or thinking to have that "someone" to be by ur side most of the time
To support u, to care bout u, to concern and to give love to u
I think every girl would ever have thought bout that before, including me
I admit sometimes I really want someone to be by my side to support me when I'm at my depressing moments.
Even if that "someone" doesnt know anything, doesnt know how to support or cheer me
It's ok, I am at least hoping for a "someone" to walk home alone with me without saying a word
That would be comforting enough
But that kind of feeling
is just a temporary feeling
All of us need a "someone" to be there supporting us in our lives
Even such a "so what if there's no man who would like me in my life" girl like me, would also at least need a "someone"
But all I know is that ' TIME will come for me '
I wont expect much from this
even if sometimes at the lowest point of my life, I would crave for a "someone" to lie on
I would still hang on till that "someone" appears in my life
Even if maybe I'm not fated to be fated with any man on this Earth
That "someone" would never appear in my life
All I can say is 都无所谓
Then I shall stay single for the rest of my life
It's ok for me without anyone to support me
I can support myself
Without any man, I can still lead my life to the fullest!
No worries, nothing... :)
OKAY!!!
Today is my day to finish all homework!!!
COS TMR.....
NO SCHOOL!!!! WHAHAHAHA XD
Tmr CHINESE exams and I dont need to sit for it le, since I've alrdy dropped this subject
HAHAHAHAHA! SUPER HAPPY!
TOO OVERJOYED!!!
I can do lots of things tmr!!! Such a rare day to have for tmr
Hmmmm.... I must really treasure tmr uh...
Hehe... Dont say much le
Gotta go finish my stuffs
Hehe XD
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Sunday, April 25, 2010 . 11:21 PM
今天好难得的一天喔！难得这么有心情读书，感觉真的很棒！
而且好像有点迷上“ 海派甜心” 这部戏
虽然我不是很喜欢看台湾联系据
因为他们的西总是做得很夸张
可是，我觉得故事的内容是很不错
就继续看下去了。。。
Hehe...
总觉得杨丞琳的脸型好像和我的一样
总感到很好奇。。。
不多说了，现在是准备考试的时期了
我和某人有个约定，一起约好要打倒对方的
所以，我决不会那么轻易让步的！
就算追后谁输的话，也得输得心甘情愿，人赌服输
一起来加油吧！！！
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Friday, April 23, 2010 . 11:05 PM
After today's A square programI was quite energetic actually
Today was really touched by some ppl
First of all was Mr Tan (tiger)
He initiate first to buy dinner for me...
I still felt kind of embarrassed to accept such offer
it's like he has been really good to me and he has also taken care bout me once in a while
I really felt it in my heart
Very touched indeed
Secondly, Jessica Cheng
My art friend
She became my maths tutor
and she seems worried for my maths
and indeed she was!
I was a little touched at first
and then she even made the effort to make some random qns for me to do
plus helped me copied out the notes
I was REALLY REALLY touched
I really admire her
I respect her a lot and I must learn a lot frm her
She really made me felt inspired to excel in Mathematics again
I've decided to score for an A1 for Mathematics
I MUST score an A1!!!
I cant let her and her efforts go down the drain! :)
Now what I needed most is to keep doing art most of the time
But of course must have some time limit to doing it
For MATHEMATICS, I have to be consistently hardworking and quick enough to practice lots and lots of qns
PLUS, I have to start to buck up my own English Language
I'm still not yet at my desired level of standard
So have to keep pulling my socks
Especially its going to be May soon
Time really flies fast!
Not enough time for preparation
Have to keep doing and doing!
Thanks to Meilin for always reminding me in class and during lessons
It really helps me a lot, though it's a little depressing though
But it's worth the effort to wake me up :)
Aja Aja FIGHTING!!!
P.S: I found this cool website http://www.iman.asia/Blog/
The photos taken are very COOL!! like WOW!!!
I really love it a lot,even some of it is photoshopped, I will visit it more often :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Tuesday, April 20, 2010 . 11:09 PM
Today have done lots of assignments!First time felt so motivated to study
HAHA!
It's GREAT to accomplished the tasks that u wanted to accomplished!
GREAT WORK!!!
It's been long ever since I had this feeling again
OOPS!
I should have experienced it earlier in a few months ago
Why should I have it now??
This shows I'm really slow and way back against time
Have to pull up my socks
Thanks to Meilin, I start to push myself forward again
Sitting beside her made me felt motivated
It's really a gd thing and also glad too
Fang Tian said that for he, she felt stress sitting beside her
Although I sat beside her, sometimes will felt that why am I so outdated
It's her that kept on playing as my role model, making me to push myself forward
I have to learn frm her everyday :DD
I've just read bout Cancer, and they were pushing so hard to move forward because they fear that they could not catching up with the others
It's kind of cool here, Haha
Which I think it's quite true...
Hmmm....
Having such a partner like her is not bad
Reminds me of studying XD
Everyone is moving forward, and I have to too
Cant always stand still
If not I'll be kicked out by time
Since I'm taking the O levels this year, and this is my LAST TIME taking it
Might as well I make it a remarkable & a memorable one ^^
Well... Now I'm free again!!!
HAHA! XD
After these 2 days of facing him in school
I no longer felt that way
I felt him more like a friend to me now
Maybe I've been treating him as my secret admirer these few days
That's why it keeps bothering me whenever the thoughts came up in my mind
Now I'm so glad that I wont think much of it
And will never do it again!
I've learned many things these 2 days frm my dear friends
I'll always move forward to each day
And never gonna live in the past anymore
What I'm looking at is the present & my future!
The past will be a history, the future will be depending on the present and the present will be depending on ME :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Monday, April 19, 2010 . 5:10 PM
Well, Today in schoolHe didnt talked to me at all
I kept on thinking bout it
Why is he acting like dat?
Well, maybe it's becos he's just too embarrassed or awkward to face it
For me, IT IS awkward
But yet i acted as if nth had happened
It really is WOW!!!
Like he could really hide his feelings for almost 2 years!
without telling anyone
That wasnt easy...
Well, I respect him.
and I respect his wish
I'm not planning to tell anyone either
Since he could do it for years, so can I :D
And he have done it for years, so just let it be silent for the rest of our lives
But still...
Kind of bothered by him
Sometimes when I see him, I couldnt stop thinking bout it
It all just feel so weird
Well, different ppl have different way of loving someone
But looking back at those msgs that he wrote
Somehow I doubt that he really likes me
Like I became the one who started thinking too much bout it!!
Or is he liking another girl at the same time, liking me too
If it is, then I really hate him
But still, it's his choice to like someone
I have no rights to say no...
Arghh...!
Cant get it!
Well, sometimes really just wished I didnt know all of these at the first place
Too irritated sometimes
Well... but still couldnt do anything
Thinking of all these doesnt benefit me either
So why do I think so much?
Let him be what he wants
If I want to solve, I'll solve it in future
RIGHT!
Now is not the time to think all these
FOCUS!
since it's future matters, let's just solve it in the future
FIGHTING!!!! Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Sunday, April 18, 2010 . 11:39 PM
Being able to love someone is greatBut being love by someone is really blessed
But is it really that great to have someone having a crush on me?
Sometimes it just gets so weird
So complicated
After my first confession by someone, really gave me a BIG HIT on the face
HE let me start to doubt in LOVE
Well, cos of the FIRST BIG HIT in my face done beautifully by HIM
Thanks to HIM!! I managed to handle the 2nd one perfectly...
Everything is under control :)
Although I felt honoured to be loved by someone
still, I didnt felt great at all
Come to think of it
it's kinda like there's butterflies in my stomach
I guess I'm really bad at handling such kind of stuff
Anyway, its late
have to wake up early tmr
it's weird though, but what I wanted to care was studies now
Let's not think too much and kept on moving forward instead!
FIGHTING!!! XD Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Saturday, April 17, 2010 . 6:58 PM
Felt so great today!I finally told mom bout her attitude towards us
We've been tolerating her for years
Finally this day came and I had the chance to talk to her heart to heart
I felt great after telling her everything
Will she going to change is up to her
I realised that she gets so upset so easily
we didnt know that
Of course, she's good at hiding it
She's a Scorpio
That's what they are.
Thanks to Fang Tian, I get to know my mom even better
From now on, I wont complain bout housework
I'll still do it, even if it takes up part of my time
I will treat her nicely
let her realize what she is herself
let her look at herself
I wanted to become a professional in such kind of things
Well, came back frm my hunting trip
Didnt manage to see lotus bud except for the a few lotus flower
it's sad actually because most of it has alrdy withered
And all i could see was the whole pond was barely any lotus flower
I guess the lotus season has just over
Well, it's a little disappointing
But it's still okay
I still get to take a few of it, plus I found the PLAY Taiwan magazine for January and February issue
HAHA! All bout Kim Hyun Joong
WHAHAHAHAHA!
Alright! From tmr onwards
Gotta FOCUS and keep in the right track
I HAVE to do thin ALONE!
No one is helping me
Now the FUTURE in my OWN HANDS
I have to pull up my socks!
FIGHTING ALL THE WAY!!! XD
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
How can my thumbdrive got lost???Arghh!!
All my songs in there T.T
Plus my SYF stuffs in there too
But fortunately, I have saved extra hard copies for all the file in have in my thumbdrive
Now I had to go buy a new one
Sad...
Using my $$$ again!!
That Toshiba thumbdrive was a gift frm my bro
Haiz...
Waste time and $$$
Need to go and buy another one
I nver to learn to cherish things agn
But fortunately enough, what I lost wasnt a very important thing
If it was my ipod or handphone or even smth more precious
I will CRY arh!!!
Later going Ang Mo kio Gardens to take some pics of lotus
Went there to see too, since nver been to there before
Well, I was hoping for someone to go there with me
But I dont think there is anyone that free to go there with me
Thinking of going there alone, it's okay
I'll survive there going alone! LOLs
I have to be independent anyway...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Friday, April 16, 2010 . 10:39 AM
Glad that there's someone having the same thought as meAlthough recently we've been discussing bout the causes and conflicts over us
I still felt so bad after gossiping over such things
By right I have no rights to talk over such things
And it's bad to talk over such matters
Well, that's how a human's greed and self-centeredness that could lead one to become so detestable.
SARCASM, PRIDE, ATTENTION, SIGNIFICANCE, IMMATURITY, SENSITIVITY
Are they that lacking of so much LOVE?
Whatever it is, let them be whatever they want
What's more important is studies right now
Hope they would come into light one day...
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Saturday, April 10, 2010 . 1:45 AM
After watching quite a lot of videos related to Kim Hyun JoongI suddenly sympathize him for his career, his dream that he always wanted to have
Doesnt he ever regretted on choosing this path as his career?
Being a star isnt that easy
I could see that he's tiring
But he seems to be enjoying it even though he's tired
Of course he wont felt tired of quitting
He still has his friends to cheer and support him
I can see all his hard work
And I seriously admire him
My eyes full of envy
How successful he was now
But I didnt wanna be like him
Although it might be very fun sometimes
it still doesnt spare me any privacy at all
Glad that he's satisfied with his career
Very popular in Asia
That's alrdy gd enough for him
After that dream
been crazy bout him recently
dunno why
Felt like I'm a little more closer to him
Yet he's still too far away
Haha.
Recently oso realised Hyung Joon is kind of cute too
LOL!
OKAYS...
gtg slp too
Now is 2AM in the MORN!!!
HAHAAHAHAAHAH!!
Sort of crazy now.... But dun worry!
I'll turn to study mode in another 8hrs time!
Time to study le!!!
BUT! SUFFICIENT SLEEP COMES FIRST! XD
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
Wednesday, April 7, 2010 . 5:08 PM
Dear Bloggie!!After soooo many many many many many many many many many many days passed
I finally get to write to u again
I've learned lots of stuff during these past few weeks and months
Now my friendship between Sheryl and Yu Feng has start to distant further away
And there's sooo much misunderstanding between us
Yet all of us still acted as if nth had happened
My trust between Fang Tian and Maureen has alrdy weakened
I cannot fully trust them but I would still want to trust them
Although they often could not fulfill my promises, they are still my good friends that really helped me sometimes
But when it comes to fulfilling promises
Sometimes I wonder why do they have to promise me in the first place when they knew that they are not going to fulfill their promises that they made with someone...?
I mean even if they dont know that they had other plans or smth, they should at least told me that they couldnt confirm with me instead of making such promises with me
I can understand that, not as if like I'm not open-minded enough
I rather they say that they couldnt confirm with me or maybe reject me than promise me things that they couldnt keep their promises...
It's sad and disappointing...
Anyway, Today was the 2nd Day that the New Zealand students were here in my school
They were from the Choir Exchange programme
They all looked really beautiful
I like their hair, their eyes and their height
It's soooo WOW!
LOL!
And their voices were great too!
I really loved their perfomances
Kind of inspired me to join choir when I go into Polytechnic in future
LOL!
After admiring at their own beauty and charms
I realised that I have been living in my small little world ever since I was born here
The world is indeed BIG and it's too big that we couldnt even live in such a big world
Our world is just as small as what we saw in our own vision
But actually, there's much more to it
I've realised that choosing a partner doesnt have to be only inside of my own little world
There's much much much more in the outside world
We dont have to be so desperate over some typical guy
What's so cool bout this guy and that guy in Singapore
All I know is that by the time comes, he will appear in my life
No matter what kind of race he comes from, what mixed-blood is he
Fate will make me accept him...
Well, now my top priority is to STUDY and prepare for the upcoming 'O's
There's still too much for me to learn
All I wanted to do was to forget bout whatever friendship that I have created now
Whatever hurt feelings that I had during these past few months
Let them be what they wanted to be
Friends start to gossip or suspect anything
So be it...
All I wanted is to be MYSELF
Although I'm still at the back
I'm still being left behind
I still wanna catch up with them
Even if I dont have such amplitude like theirs
Even if sometimes I felt so bad that I ever have this thought of giving up
But as long as I believe I have the right attitude
Things will change itself when the time comes
Totally agree with these phrases
"No Pain. No Gain"
不怕慢，只怕站！
6th April 2010, Tuesday, 7.30pm
Last night I had a nice dream
I dreamt of Hyun Joong Oppa
He and Lee Min Ho came to Singapore
Hyun Joong Oppa ended up staying in my hse for a few nights cos of no vacancies of hotel rooms already
LOL...
And the most embarrassing thing is...
He actually approached and k****d me!
OMGOSH!
I thought he wanted to talk to me bout smth
I was really shocked that he did that to me
Okay, I know it seems to be ridiculous, exaggerating
LOL! but that's what I dreamt of
And I was shocked too, when I recalled bout this scene in the morn when I was walking to school
Anyway, it will NEVER HAPPEN in reality
LOLs...
I wonder if he's really going to come to Singapore soon...
Or Maybe smth good or bad is going to happen to him or me?
Haha.
It's my first time having him inside my dream
And I even communicated with him in Japanese
Since I dont know how to speak Korean
LOL! That was the fun part!
Her voices... Where her HEART is...