Wednesday, April 7, 2010 . 5:08 PM
Dear Bloggie!!After soooo many many many many many many many many many many days passed
I finally get to write to u again
I've learned lots of stuff during these past few weeks and months
Now my friendship between Sheryl and Yu Feng has start to distant further away
And there's sooo much misunderstanding between us
Yet all of us still acted as if nth had happened
My trust between Fang Tian and Maureen has alrdy weakened
I cannot fully trust them but I would still want to trust them
Although they often could not fulfill my promises, they are still my good friends that really helped me sometimes
But when it comes to fulfilling promises
Sometimes I wonder why do they have to promise me in the first place when they knew that they are not going to fulfill their promises that they made with someone...?
I mean even if they dont know that they had other plans or smth, they should at least told me that they couldnt confirm with me instead of making such promises with me
I can understand that, not as if like I'm not open-minded enough
I rather they say that they couldnt confirm with me or maybe reject me than promise me things that they couldnt keep their promises...
It's sad and disappointing...
Anyway, Today was the 2nd Day that the New Zealand students were here in my school
They were from the Choir Exchange programme
They all looked really beautiful
I like their hair, their eyes and their height
It's soooo WOW!
LOL!
And their voices were great too!
I really loved their perfomances
Kind of inspired me to join choir when I go into Polytechnic in future
LOL!
After admiring at their own beauty and charms
I realised that I have been living in my small little world ever since I was born here
The world is indeed BIG and it's too big that we couldnt even live in such a big world
Our world is just as small as what we saw in our own vision
But actually, there's much more to it
I've realised that choosing a partner doesnt have to be only inside of my own little world
There's much much much more in the outside world
We dont have to be so desperate over some typical guy
What's so cool bout this guy and that guy in Singapore
All I know is that by the time comes, he will appear in my life
No matter what kind of race he comes from, what mixed-blood is he
Fate will make me accept him...
Well, now my top priority is to STUDY and prepare for the upcoming 'O's
There's still too much for me to learn
All I wanted to do was to forget bout whatever friendship that I have created now
Whatever hurt feelings that I had during these past few months
Let them be what they wanted to be
Friends start to gossip or suspect anything
So be it...
All I wanted is to be MYSELF
Although I'm still at the back
I'm still being left behind
I still wanna catch up with them
Even if I dont have such amplitude like theirs
Even if sometimes I felt so bad that I ever have this thought of giving up
But as long as I believe I have the right attitude
Things will change itself when the time comes
Totally agree with these phrases
"No Pain. No Gain"
不怕慢，只怕站！
6th April 2010, Tuesday, 7.30pm
Last night I had a nice dream
I dreamt of Hyun Joong Oppa
He and Lee Min Ho came to Singapore
Hyun Joong Oppa ended up staying in my hse for a few nights cos of no vacancies of hotel rooms already
LOL...
And the most embarrassing thing is...
He actually approached and k****d me!
OMGOSH!
I thought he wanted to talk to me bout smth
I was really shocked that he did that to me
Okay, I know it seems to be ridiculous, exaggerating
LOL! but that's what I dreamt of
And I was shocked too, when I recalled bout this scene in the morn when I was walking to school
Anyway, it will NEVER HAPPEN in reality
LOLs...
I wonder if he's really going to come to Singapore soon...
Or Maybe smth good or bad is going to happen to him or me?
Haha.
It's my first time having him inside my dream
And I even communicated with him in Japanese
Since I dont know how to speak Korean
LOL! That was the fun part!
Her voices... Where her HEART is...