Friday, June 11, 2010 . 7:51 PM
I will not make the same mistakes that you didI will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
Because of You by Kelly Clarkson
I once used to feel this way
But not anymore...
That was the worst feeling that I ever got
And the HARDEST Hit I ever got during that year
from my 2nd time in having special feelings with an IDIOTIC guy
This song just reminds me of him
He's not worth to be like anyway...
I'm having breathing problems again
My heart seems to be having some problems again
I dont know what's happening to my heart
But such problem doesnt always happen
It's already been years
It rarely happens
yet I dont know why this year it kept on coming for quite a number of times
Sometimes I really hate my body system
Looking so fine and healthy
yet inside of it is so weak and fragile
Gastric , heart problems, bladder problems , low-blood pressure ...
My healthy organs are no longer healthy
Lacking of red-blood cells too
How much longer can I survive???
When will my heart stop beating?
I've been asking this question to myself, my body
So I could prepare myself beforehand
But there's no answer, that's why I'm worried
I can leave EVERYTHING behind
But I dont want to leave everything UNDONE behind... Her voices... Where her HEART is...
