Wednesday, July 7, 2010 . 7:30 PM
Can I just be my negative-self for a while?................................................................
I feel sooo...
STUPID!
I feel like I'm so left out behind time
I felt like I'm still a someone who still doesnt know anything yet
My grades are failing
They are failing very badly
Social Studies! Literature! Physics! Emaths!
Why everyone knows the answer yet I'm the one who always got the wrong answer to most of the questions?
Everyone is improving everyday
only me who is still standing and not moving at all
Even art, the teachers are admiring Sheryl's and Lai Feng's painting...
They have also improved their painting
I've also got some bad comments from Tiger, Mr Lim
Tiger and Mr Lim both said the same thing to me too
"Still the same, not improving"
"Wah, paint this painting for 2 years. Still painting the same thing? Skill level like only up to that standard"
What have become of me today?
I was wondering to myself...
It wasnt feeling good at all, I told myself not to think of anything and just continue my painting
I told myself not to think of anything at all, especially HIM
In the end, results got me to somewhere better
I'm painting more better and better
This is what I got from my Art teacher, Mr Tan
Was glad to hear of cos...
And I realised another thing...
What am I doing all these while???
What have I been doing all these while???
I've been thinking bout HIM
Worse is, EVERYDAY...
Becos of my thinking, becos of thinking bout him that I'm too preoccupied with myself all the time
I lost track of my own time
I lost my way...
What have become of me till today???
I guess it's time to stop everything
I wont force anything anymore
I wont wish for anything anymore
I wont request for anything anymore...
He wont say it to me, I know
I'm just wishing for things that wont even happen
So everything just stops here
No more of waiting...
And not looking forward to anything from him anymore...
I'm going to do things my way from now on
Everything will just stop here
And I mean it this time.
If I'll eventually lose him in the end, just let it be
It's okay with me, becos there is something much more important to do now
Right now...
Went out to take a break
I saw...
Workers still working
And it's still raining...
I realized something
There will be results, if I work hard just like them...
Even obstacle like the rain, is stopping them from working
I still have to continue working hard, just like them
I also felt blessed at the same time
They are leading their lives
Much miserable than mine I guess...
雨过晴天！
The air is fresh and cool...
I love it during this time...
It's beautiful, ain't it?
That's the end of the results
No matter how hard it is achieve what u want
Just continue persevering...
There will always be light at the end of the whole journey...
And you'll be SUPER SATISFIED with ur accomplishments
And SMILING away with the beautiful results that u saw at the end :)
No Pain, No Gain
I've totally forgotten bout this
But now, it shall always remain in my mind :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
