Saturday, July 3, 2010 . 11:00 PM
Went to have a brain wash again!Haha!
It's been weeks ever since I attended class again
Well, listening...
And it woke me up...
I guess I hadn't been myself for these few weeks
I've been thinking too much
I have to stay calm...
I'm not going to bother bout anything that has to do with relationship and stuffs
Let everything arranged itself
I've been too imaginative
What I've never been in contact for the past few weeks was 'Reality'
Reality was much more real than I ever thought
Well, it looks like I've just woken up from a bad dream
Now what I really wanted was just studies
Career, money and health
Whatever things about losing him
Whatever problems about whether he likes it or not
Or what should I do if nth good turns out in the end..
Or what am I suppose to do... blah blah
At least I know I get to like someone again
At least I know that there is a 'someone' in my heart that I would not fall for anyone anymore in future...
I think I've been very selfish to the ppl around me
Acting so immature like a small kid these few weeks...
He always thought that life sucks
But life didnt suck at all to me
Life is great! I'm proudly to say that!
It's them and him, who didnt attain the knowledge of what life is...
He still doesnt know what REAL life is...
I didnt have to try to like what he likes
I didnt have to try to think what he really thinks
I just want to be myself
I want to move on and I need to
And it seems like I'm able to do that now =)
All these while, its not that kami-sama (god) has left me
It was me, who was the one who always have been too preoccupied with things to do with HIM
that the presence of kami-sama started disappearing gradually, without me realizing it
until that I start to feel that kami-sama is not beside me anymore
I realize how important kami-sama is to me...
Well... this is a lesson learnt for me
Feel truly blessed to born for this life...
Everything is enough for me, too fortunate to have soooo many things in possession
It's alrdy enough for me, too much for me to have sooo many gd things
I think I should stop asking for anything more and start giving and sharing things out again...
Cos it's time to cherish the things I have now, making full use of it
The fresh air the I've been longing to breathe...
The FREEDOM that I've been missing for months...
I'M COMING!!! XD
Totally agree to Musfirah's statement:
I'll be happy. Maybe not now, but soon... =)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
