Friday, October 8, 2010 . 11:58 PM
Well....Today was Graduation Day!!!
Haha...
Finally the day that all of us were waiting for!
No more lessons and no more of classes
End of our school days...
Gonna miss the school and the teachers who've taught me
Enjoyable today!
Last Night Study too...
Time really flies fast...
Well...
After weeks and weeks
I've been observing him, sometimes
I came to realize that he wasnt what I actually thought to be
Much more different I guess
Was actually glad that time really did gave me another chance to reconsider
And now I'm not regretting...
I really did enjoy myself in school today
And I'm not bothered by him anymore
I felt more carefree, I am given freedom now :)
Days passes...
Weeks passes...
Nobody is going to bother about me
And I'm not going to bother bout others too...
I'm just living my life to the fullest as always :)
Gradually... I realized...
I've naturally let go...
someone I've once treasured very much :)
Even though there's still some emptiness in my heart
But I feel carefree again
it was comforting enough
"Something" that I felt, used to be in there, is missing
Yet I rather feel calmer and unrestricted than before
Even though I'll still feel the pain sometimes
not becos of him...
But rather how my feelings were being cheated by him...
It's not fully his fault either
I do also have my own fault
Just take it as I didnt really open my eyes wide enough
Blaming him doesnt help either
He doesnt even know anything anyway...
It would be unfair if I blame him for everything
Just that I would still feel a little unsatisfied, unfair
that my feelings were being cheated like that by someone for months
I've also got a clearer view of others, the people around me
How I've become myself today...
I guess I wasn't been conscious enough of my activities for these past few months...
Well...
What's there to forgive and forget, has alrdy been done!
Time to wake up!
Reality is still reality
Just face it.
Whatever previous bad or worse relationships and friendship that we all had, were all alrdy the past
There will still be more in the future
And maybe even much better than the present :)
I'll still learn to be grateful as always, looking forward to what my future may bring :)
Her voices... Where her HEART is...
