Monday, November 29, 2010 . 10:43 AM
Do you believe in retribution?Well, I do.
Recalling of what did I do to him in the past...
I guess this time its my turn, somehow.
Sometimes, qns like: " Why must he do that?", would just cropped up in my mind.
Disappointment would always consume me after that
I've not competely forgotten him yet, but still trying very hard to understand, trying hard to forget and let it slipped pass.
I guess its becos have been pinning on too much hopes and anitcipation
It's hurting again.
But somehow, it alrdy feels numb.
Just letting it be for a while, I'll be fine again later :)
"Well, I feel sorry for your generation," Morrie said.
"In this culture, it's so important to find a loving relationship with someone because of so much of the culture does not give you that. But the poor kids today, either they're too selfish to take part in a real loving relationship, or they rush into marriage and then six months later, they get divorced. They dont know what they want in a partner, they dont know who they are themselves - so how can they know who they're marrying?"
- Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
After reading this
I've beginning to understand more
Started questioning, what does HIS so-called "Love" means?
Does it means that much to what I've expected only?
What does it really mean to him?
How important does it really matter to him?
OR...
Maybe, HE's not taking it as seriously as I am
Cos to me, it means a lot...
Way more important than HE thinks...
What someone asks from the other partner...
What someone wants from the other partner...
People dont usually ask themselves this
Maybe its just too chim for most of the people out there...
Someday, maybe I'll get to question this myself again...
I guess there isnt any much choices for me now.
I cant run nor hide now.
I'm facing it myself, alone
I no longer fear it, it alrdy penetrates through me I guess...
Anyway...
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step
I've alrdy started my first step
The next would be up to me to continue it...
Athough I felt like shouting and screaming at how bad HE's been
Felt like being blunt in font of him
Tormenting. Despicable. Unfathomable.
But I was not born to do these things to people that I care
"People are only mean when they're threatened," he said later that day, "and that's what our culture does. Even people who have jobs in our economy are threatened, because they worry about losing them. And when you get threatened, you start looking out only for yourself. You can start making money a god. It is all part of this culture."
He exhaled,"Which is why I dont buy into it".
- Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
Well...
Be it hurtful or not again
It doesnt get as serious as before now
I'm living on my own for now.
Carefree. Facing reality.
I guess its time to spread my wings again
Time to smile!
and I LOVE MY LIFE! :) Her voices... Where her HEART is...
